I think every artist's life has inevitable sharp twists and turns. The knowledge, popularity, inspiration: they all change dynamics through time.

I am very low.

I don't mean to complain, but this (school) year has been one of the hardest, most stressful years of my life. So many factors have changed me and reshaped my perspective of the future. I have a bad habit of thinking too much, and that has affected me tremendously. I don't sleep much. I have gained weight. I am not as happy as I would like. I am not as motivated as I use to be.

School has sucked so much of my free time. My gallery has not seen many new deviations during this past school year, as most of you have witnessed.
I sketch photo ideas whenever they hit. I have PILES of sketches! The sad part is that I looked through some of them recently, and I don't have a want to shoot some of them anymore--even if I did have the time, because those ideas were inspired at a point in my life that doesn't connect with who I am now. It's sort of sad.

Being a junior in high school, I have been instructed and pressured into hardcore researching about colleges. I take my education extremely seriously, so I'm stressing about that. Of course. That's me. I've been SO sure that I want to be a photographer that going to a photography-based/art college has seemed like the perfect plan. But there are so many photographers.
What makes me any better?
What if I'm not good enough?
What if I waste 4 years of my life focusing on a trade that turns out to just being a hobby?

Now, don't get me wrong; I LOVE photography. I have a ton more to learn, and I WANT to learn...my mind is just on overload.

I'm currently working on better managing my time, so I hope I'll have more photos entering my gallery. I'm currently cleaning out my gallery to have a more refined showcase of work that I think properly reflects my skills and my "eye" as a photographer. I am currently trying to make myself a better person--in many different respects.

I can only hope for the best.